2008年6月20日 星期五

宗教信仰

前幾天家裡來換門窗,所有窗簾都拆了下來.昨天換好以後,爸爸跟Leo又把門窗的框上了白色油漆,照理說是很棒阿.可是不知道怎麼搞的,那身體已經很不舒服兩天的我看到到處都是搬過桌椅的髒亂,看到地上都是黑黑又白白的汙跡,又聽到外面吵雜的車子的聲音(因為要等油漆乾,窗戶都開著),還又所有的窗戶都沒有窗簾感覺好像外面所有的人都可以看到屋子裡面的感覺,又加上媽媽又跑出去打牌,我昨天下午時心情就是一整個不爽.我開始自己搬椅子弄窗簾,整理桌椅,掃地完用拖把拖,拖完後還在用布跪在地上把每一吋地板擦的光亮,一直做一直做,有點那種化悲憤為力量的感覺,有點委屈有點氣有點不爽又有一點mission accomplish的成就感,後來剩下family room還沒弄時,突然在外面抽煙的爸爸跑進來叫我說有朋友找我!
我想: 疑? 會是誰阿?
一開門一個熟悉的臉龐進入了我的眼中 - CINDY!
看到老朋友還真是蠻開心的~ 所以我們兩個就話夾子一打開說說對方的近況.stanly也從waterloo mechtronic畢業了還找到了工作,小弟tommy也進了waterloo 讀 system design, 而cindy自己也找到了工作就離家才近尺~ 真是為他們高興阿!講了講其他的一些老朋友的近況後,突然cindy談到了她最近成了基督教徒~ 我雖然不是說很surprise可是讓還真的有所感觸~ 身邊最近好多朋友都成了基督教徒(虔誠的那種喔),像是Liz也是,剛剛無意間看到yvonne的blog也發現她成了基督教徒,大家能在宗教信仰中找的peace and support當然是我也樂意見到的,可是如果我發現religion變成了過份的idol的時候.我就無法溝通.唉~ 自古以來,宗教信仰成為很多戰火的原因,對我來說甚至我好怕會失去這些朋友! 不過直得慶幸的是,我跟cindy有了一些還蠻深入的討論,我們都很理性,也很尊重對方的想法. 最近的我也讀了許多有關religion的書籍,讓我更了解了一些之前對宗教的一些問題~ 對我來說,只要做事問心無愧,對社會有貢獻,讓我身邊的人不要為我失望,我就很滿足了. 人生難免有高高低低,有些人需要求助信仰,可是我覺得任何事情都還是只有自己可以扭轉,當時間的成長,環境的轉變讓人有了新的point of view, then i think 沒有什麼事情是過不去的! 活在當下! i don't really care about if i will be in heaven or hell after i die, because if i can happily cherish my family and feel content about my life while i am still alive, that is the most important to me! in my opinion, it is all about how we feel about ourrselves and again the ways we look at things rather than trying to figure out "which god is the best for us believe in? which god will help us the most? which god will get us to heaven..."
There are already races, nationalities, histories, social classes that are setting people apart, why are religions putting more boundaries to divide people into heaven and hell? Religion is supposed to help people to be good, and help people to feel good. I respect all religions and feel they all carry deep meanings of life and hope everyone has a happy life regardless.
But if one more, one more person tells me that ONLY believing in Jesus can send me to heaven, otherwise I will go to hell for sure, then you know what? you better hope that either I don't make it to heaven or you don't fall to hell, becuase if i see you at either places, I am SO going to annoy you back!! but WHATEVER!

P.S. I was going to blog about my trip to Miami....but the whole religion and meaning of life topic sort of occupied my mind...and my real estate stuff has been occupying my time too....The short story is - MIAMI AND BAHAMAS CRUISE WERE FABULOUS!! THE GIRLS WERE FANTASTIC!!! THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS!! THE PARTIES WERE SO FUN! AND THE BEACHES....AWWWWWWWWWWWWW